2001-12-17-Fear of Confrontation

Session

Opening

Alana : Yes, this is Alana.

David : Welcome, Alana.

Alana : Thank you. Of course it is always best if one can speak directly to the other, but if for any reason this is not possible, it is good then to speak to a third person as a mediator. But even then you will discover that complications arise. For the human mind will persist in its own definitions. Still, you do your best to attempt to create true communication, that is communicating the truth with love. Slowly, you sweep your own floor. This is to relieve the mind of the transmitter, as well as your beloved Mr. Practice, that no harm has been done, no harm has been intended. Still there is some clarification needed. Yes?

David : It seems to be.

Alana : And so you continue to exercise the discipline of patience, yes?

David : Yes.

Alana : Thank you. And so, you wish to speak to me today. I am here listening.

David : I have a little anxiety in me about the physical upset of our beloved transmitter through this experience of confronting Oliver. I need some assurance, or reassurance that we were doing the right thing. What happened there with Susie’s body and all. Do you have anything to share with me on this?

Lesson

Alana : Yes, my friend. You have yet to learn to greet your beloved’s physical manifestations with calmness and faith in her strength and her will to live well. This is difficult because you know she has not always, in her lifetime, chosen to live well, to live healthy, to even have the desire to live at all. Furthermore, your attachment to her, like your attachment to your mother, has within it the desire that she should never suffer the slings and arrows of living life upon your planet earth, be it also, Urantia. Further, when her body is distressed you experience fear, you fear the loss, the loss intimated, the loss imagined, the loss suggested by physical distress. This physical response in the transmitter, prompted by an appropriate physical move to rid herself and her body of noxious tension and negativity, was beneficial and, as I have said, an appropriate response. The discomfort was, she will acknowledge, minimal. She consciously relaxed the muscles of the body, and the stomach, so as to eliminate the noxious tensions with as much tranquility as she was capable. Even as she was woken in the night to repeat the process, even as she was amazed that more noxious tension released more noxious fluids in the night, more than she could have imagined still present in her body. So, this was a lesson for her to accept the response with tranquility and it is a lesson for you to be calm. You will discover, as you speak with her, she had no mental distress, nor mental fear of this physical response. We would have you, as well, reduce your mental fear when your beloved displays the physical manifestations of fear, doubt, illness, or, in this case, physical response necessary to the release of physical tensions. You, beloved, have a tendency to allow your mind to create fear around her physical manifestations.

This physical response, this physical tension, was, I may say, among the final expressions of habitual tension to the fear of confrontation. She has understood correctly, she is strengthening her body, growing in strength, growing in the ability to speak the difficult truths clearly, articulately, even forcefully, I might say, without over-emotionalization of her speaking. That is to say, without yelling, without stamping the feet, without, as you call it, the tantrum of emotion, without weeping, without crying, without hiding behind the emotions and emotional expressions of fear and doubt. She did, indeed, experience the habitual gripping of the stomach muscles. She did, indeed, experience the habitual griping of the musculature of the body. But she did well. She did, indeed, experience the habitual self-doubt that her strength and force was excessive, or the product of emotions and not balanced thinking, but we say, she did well. She will increasingly find herself able to say difficult things with less physical tension, more certainty of mental and emotional calm, indeed, the sense that she has joined her communication with ours in such a way as to come very close to the experience of transmission with her eyes wide open. Her heart and her tongue guided by me, or Legion, or Devina.

And so, it is also to be said that you will increasingly manage your mental manifestations of emotional fear or concern for your beloved so that you will discover the pathway to tranquility of mind. Equally it is to be said that this is a time for your beloved Mr. Practice to practice the tranquility of heart, and Legion will continue to work with him. He will begin to discover that his weeping is the cry of the child, not the man, the child still crying for love, the child still crying to be told he is not perfect, but he is loved nevertheless by parents equally imperfect who believed they could force perfection upon one so small. When he has rid himself of this expectation, his heart will open again in a new way, just as it did when first Legion spoke to him, and he will know a new tranquility. The tranquility of heart is the tranquility of love, and love does not force. Love is, indeed, the greatest force on earth, but it does not force one another. Love does, indeed, permeate all once the heart has opened to be permeated, but love does not conquer with force. Love enters because it is welcomed, and the process, rather than divide and conquer, is one of giving and receiving. Yes? Thank you. Is there more you wish to speak about?

David : I feel very nurtured by your words. I feel quite satisfied. Nena, do you have something?

Nena : Alana, we have fear of the new, could you speak about this?

Closing

Alana : Alana, yes, beloved, you fear the new. Yes? You fear the great change that comes with such positive results of your prayers and intentions and you have a mental idea that fear accompanies negative results, but perhaps should not accompany positive change. Yes? The fear of the unknown is not so surprising. It is difficult as an adult to walk those trembling steps that the child did so eagerly. Yes? Because the child is imitating the adult with great joy, and the child’s new steps are greeted always with joy. But now the adult knows those steps lead to an unknown that could greet you with the transition into death, or the transition into illness, or the transition into “no one there to catch you.” The faith of the adult is different from the innocent faith of the child. It is with the fear of the unknown, and so for the adult it is the exercise of greater and greater faith. Less innocent. Yes?

T/R : At this point, the t/r made a mistake and erased the last section of the tape.